Life is a mashing together of yawns and mouth-watering moments that can end up kicking you in the face while wearing a cream colored jacket with a yellow scorpion on the back of it if you aren't careful. But caution takes on many forms, and simple actions can turn into life-threatening acts of idiocy.
Say, for instance, that you drive a black Cadillac. A nice, luxurious black Cadillac with climate control, built in Nav and Bluetooth, a six speed automatic and heated bucket seats. You love your Cadillac, and it loves you. The truth is that you've liked Cadillacs your entire life, whether you've known it or not. They are dependable and beautiful.
That's grand.
One day, you take your Cadillac to the dealership for an oil change. Your passion for your Cadillac never wavers--you even tell the techs to top it off with synthetic even though you know that you're going to change your oil in 3000 miles anyway (you're in this for the long-haul). While you're waiting for your beloved yacht-of-the-road to get it's new drink, you step outside onto the lot just to see what your favorite car brand has come out with for the next model year.
And then, there it is.
Suddenly, the sky shifts and the sun pokes out through the holes in an oddly-shaped grey sky. The world seems a little less beautiful, somehow. It sits trapped in a beam of light from the menace sun that just moments before filled blue skies and made birds chirp. A 2004 Cobra, Cinnamon Red. You know, the supercharged
dirty one that your mother always warned you about.
You never wanted this, but now your life is different.
You walk over to it tepidly, attempting to appear as though your heart hasn't dropped into your stomach. It's a 6-speed manual, low to the ground, chrome exhaust tips and the single most aggressive hood that you've ever seen. That glorious, bulging hood that literally grabs you by the collar and then screams at you not to look if you want to preserve any of your dignity.
It's angry, it's rear-wheel drive and you know that driving it for even an hour could kill you, literally. And yet, there you are--still looking at it like a fox eyeing a hen. Except then you realize that it's the other way around.
The last barrier between you and total lunacy is the price tag, and your logic stands like Gary Cooper in the third row of a Megadeath concert, struggling helplessly against your curiosity. And then the stump of logic is pounded into the ground. You look. And your next thought...
"I could probably get that and more if I trade in my Cadillac."
And now you're actually considering it, you're actually considering downgrading; sacrificing the comfort of your loved Cadillac for the thrill and excitement of that dreadful, coarse and wildly beautiful deathtrap-to-be as piloted by the still immortal child inside of you.
And the hood... The inhumanity of that hood.
Just then, your salesman walks out to you to let you know that your car is ready. You've been his customer for years, maybe even a decade or two, so he has both of your interests in mind. He sees you giving that old Cobra a nice how's-your-father and gets a worried but sympathetic expression.
"Yeah...." He draws it out real slow-like. "We got that on a trade for a new ATS."
Logic suddenly triumphs and you realize a myriad of things all at once. The car isn't practical (this is New York, for Christ's sake, we have a bad winter), it has none of the creature comforts you love, it's probably way too much car for you to handle (and you're not afraid to admit it, because some humility will keep you alive sometimes) and you still have that Cadillac.
The most important thing that you realize is that this inferno of a vehicle has been around the block a few times. Hell, it might have even killed somebody. It's just that much of a lunatic. And someone else gave it up for something that you already have.
You look up at Stew (come on, what would you have named him?) with a look of relief, sweat pouring down your face even though it's a crisp 67 degrees. You smile what you're sure must be a toothless smile as a result of the pounding you've taken for your internal struggle.
Someday you'll buy Stew a beer. Or, maybe you'll buy a useless trunk cargo net the next time you buy a car from him. The sky clears up again and as you walk away you look back at that source of your Harvey Dent-esque mood swings. Approaching the car is a young man in a sideways hat with his mom and dad.
You came to the dealership looking for an oil change and you almost left with a death wish.
But every now and then when someone passes you in their supped-up and blacked-out LS1 Camaro, you wonder, "How bad could it really have been?" Then you look at the exceptionally tasteful Napa Valley wood trim and turn on the heated leather seat.
It doesn't matter, because your Cadillac has and always will feel like home. Sometimes you should just leave good enough alone.